Ralphie's Ramblings

 I remember when..... How many times have we heard those words in our life?  As I have gotten older I have found that I have an extremely good memory for past events. I can often recall events from a very young age.  It isn't total recall. I do not remember the dates or days.  Sometimes names elude me, but the events from the past come to me with amazing clarity. My short-term memory is not very good but things from the past are just another story. The problem is that this can be a double-edged sword. Having a good memory can be amazing. I can remember the best moments of my childhood like it was yesterday. A lot of the amazing moments from sports, school, and the Air Force are remembered in detail. I remember almost all of the wonderful moments of past relationships with warmth and fondness.  Something triggers the memory and I will just smile. It's like for that brief moment I am transported back in time.  Even if I am asked a question and do not remember, it will normally co

 I have been meaning to write this for ten months. It is time to get it done.  Over the years I have heard many people talk about turning a certain age that greatly affected them.   For some, it was thirty. For others, it was 40 or 50. For me, it was without a doubt 60.  There are various reasons I suppose, but sixty, more than any other age, really hit me. For the first time, I saw myself as old in looks and in my mind. The closest to 60 for me was 18.  It was for completely different reasons though.  An old girlfriend threw me a surprise 18th birthday party. Back then 18 was big in New York State because it was the legal drinking age.  The party was great but it turned out to be the end of an era for myself and my high school friends. I only saw a few of them again. the issue for me though was immaturity. I had already been in college a month and quite frankly I was confused and lost. It came out in anger, jealousy, and pettiness brought on by my age.  Some of it was just being a you

Wipe Away the Tears If you’re feeling lonely When the lights are low Just look to the past To a time when we were  Dancing toe to toe The gaze in our eyes A oneness only we could know So go ahead  Go ahead and cry I will wipe away the tears  From your eye I will kiss your tears  til your cheeks are dry I remember your sweet smile Though separated by miles I feel the warmth of your breath on my neck Though we parted and were through All the tears I fought through Brought me peace and our friendship grew  So go ahead  Go ahead and cry I will wipe away the tears  From your eye I will kiss your tears  til your cheeks are dry Helping Healing  Haunting  Daunting So go ahead  Go ahead and cry I will wipe away the tears  From your eye I will kiss kiss your tears til your cheeks are dry

I have been posting most of my thoughts of Facebook. I finally realized most people could care less about every random thought I have. I am also factoriing in tht I type much better on a laptop than on a phone. I am horrible with phones. That is not to say I am great on a pc (I am sure there will be tons of typos), but it can't be any worse. So here it goes. I have started exercising some the past few weeks. Since the beginning of covid I have had so many sarcoidosis flare ups that I have been on higher doses of prednisone than I prefer. My sarcoidosis was flaring after every vaccination (I was told no more covid shots) and after each bout of covid (2). Then you add in a virus right after recovering from covid and my weight ballooned. So now I begin all over. I had lost down to 225 before have a pulmonary embolism a few years ago. i was walking eight miles a day 3 to 5 days a week. I tried restarting a few times and was back up to 5 miles before Covid hit. At that point I co

Song For The Lost Tell me now Is there a reason Is it love Or merely treason It blows my mind It has me reeling  I really hate What’s been revealing Can I Heal Am I feeling Is it love  What you are dealing  Or merely an act With no concealing I miss your smile  I miss your touch I miss the feeling I need so much Tell me now Is there a reason Is it love Or merely treason It blows my mind It has me reeling  I really hate What’s been revealing

 How do I Reach You Listening I see you Listening I care Listening I touch you All that I dare How do I reach you Years have gone by Closed and protected  As hard as I try Can we dance Can we still hug Can I give flowers Can we make love How do I reach you Years have gone by Still far away  Still you won’t cry Will you ever love Will you every try Will you accept my touch  Will you let it pass by How do I reach you In silence we die

One Night Stand Encasing All-Embracing Moments In Time Eases the Hurting Frustration  Elation Memories of mine Repeats all the yearning I feel you in my dreams It erases my mind Your no longer spurning Advancements in my heart  That race through my mind Thoughts your not returning.  There was one night You opened your mind  And we started learning  Desires and the lust of our hearts Started us burning I feel you in my dreams It erases my mind Your no longer spurning Advancements in my heart  That alter my time  Thoughts your not returning.  I wonder in my dream Can friendships survive  Our goals and our burning All that we had to the ashes in time  And difference in yearning I feel you in my dreams It erases my mind Your no longer spurning Advancements in my heart  That race through my mind Thoughts your not returning. 

  Psychedelic Journey Swirling and turning Yellows Reds Blues Weaving in and out Is that space  Or just a hue A haze of smoke  A journey  One I can not deny  The music transports me Will I laugh or will I cry Intensity is glaring I must close my eyes A trip to a place Beyond reach of this realm I open my eyes A Psychedelic Journey  In a plastic disguise